满意，珍惜

我喜欢现在的自己，现在的生活
跟喜欢的人在一起，做喜欢的工作
开小小的车，偶尔给自己来个小小的慰劳
穿美美的工作服，戴美美的耳环
每天早上嗅香香的味道，喷香香的香水
在大大的学校。。。穿大大的内衣？？哈哈哈，不是啦！做大大的梦想~
还有有甜甜的恋人，好好的家人，老老的朋友
一切一切
我希望美好的人和事都不要消失
一直一直都提醒自己，在追求美好的同时，不要忘了自己的初衷

promise is meant to be broken？

当两个人的步伐不一样了。。。相处的方式渐渐改变了。。。
在一起只会让人更加了解什么是勉强。。
遵守不了的诺言不管是有多么无奈的苦衷和解释。。
始终还是遵守不了的诺言。。。
promise is meant to be broken？
然而接踵而来的问题不再只是另一方面的体谅和理解。。。
更多更多的是不信任的和互相猜测的开始。。。。

im not a good teacher

im so down. im not a good piano teacher. a failed one :(
today i have a theory class with 3 students which are 2 boys and 1 girl, unfortunately one of the boy is suffering from down syndrome.
the boy kept murmuring and shouting while im teaching in the room and totally distracted the others to pay attention in the class.
i tried to talk to him nicely and patiently but things never work out. he cannot understand what i said at all and i dont know what is he shouting as well.
so i decided to neglect the kid, let him to do anything he likes in the room and only teach the other 2 kids.
however, he refused to go home after the piano class, he sat on the staircase and kept crying. his mom told me sunday is the happiest day for him as he loves piano class very much. it's true that he kept shouting at me in order to attract me in the class. but i just ignored him.
i was extremely regret after listening what his mom said, i shouldnt neglect him or give up talking to him, i should be more patient towards him.
well, i'll take it as a lesson and learn to be more patient towards the kids no matter they're normal or suffering from any illness.
gambate teacher chua :)

quick update

It's been a while! Well, here's a quick update about my holiday, to be specific, jobless life in kt. 2 months time in kt passed in a blink of eyes, I really had a sweet time with my great companion who never failed to make me burst into laughter. The 1st 2 weeks waiting for him to come back from UK was particularly slow, however, time passed really fast after he's back in kt. I really love spending my time with him. We paktor everyday, had 'gossip-ful' dinner together, had sarcastic jokes but knowing that we're deeply in love, both bleary-eyed while having breakfast, enjoyed the breeze at batu buruk together, massaged each other sweetly, took lots of photos with silly pose, argued about his noisy sport car which named proton saga, held an umbrella for me during the sweltering day, celebrated our very 1st anniversary, encouraged and stayed with me all the time from the preparation until the end of my 1st interview, blamed the kanasai tomyam meehon in TTC and today, he brought me home. I know it's a promise, it's another way of him to tell me that he's really serious towards our relationship. Thanks for everything bei :) Well, time flies when you're having fun. My holiday eventually comes to an end, I'm going to kl tomorrow to have my 2nd and 3rd interview on 1st Sept without his companion. I'll be staying in KL alone until I've found my 1st job. We're going to be far apart again....though hatred doesnt helps but I truly hate the feeling when he's not beside me :(

Anyway..



Im looking forward our reunion after 2 WEEKS.

hahahahhahahaa~~~I love you :)

The strength of a man

The strength of a man isn't seen in the width of his shoulders.
It's in the width of his arms that encircle you.

The strength of a man isn't in the deep tone of his voice.
It's in the gentle words he whispers.

The strength of a man isn't how many buddies he has.
It's how good a buddy he is with his kids.

The strength of a man isn't in how respected he is at work.
It's in how respected he is at home.

The strength of a man isn't in how hard he hits.
It's in how tender he touches.

The strength of a man isn't in the hair on his chest.
It's in his heart, that lies within his chest.

The strength of a man isn't how many women he's loved.
It's in being true to one woman.

The strength of a man isn't in the weight he can lift.
It's in the burdens he can carry.

confession

Bei.. thanks for everything u did for me...
thanks for being with me all the time...
thank you for putting so much effort to maintain our relationship..
i dont think i can ever meet anyone who loves me like u do...
i love to be pampered by you like a lil princess...
you're such a darling for me :)
i promise you...i'll appreciate and cherish you with all i have...
you are the one i want the most in my life. i want to live my life with you.
i love you.

im graduating soon.

i will be going back Malaysia in 3 months.
2 yrs of studying in china is coming to an end in a blink of eyes
there's no more semester break, no more study week, no more weekly party, outings, burning night oil in the coming days.
yes i have to start working and share my parent's burden to support my family financially...
there's nothing i can do despite of accepting the truth that I'VE GROWN UP~
ma de....22 yrs old... @.@